Day 23

The next day everything seemed ok

I walked passed Riggs’ room to see her lying on her bed holding her head and moving her jaw. I bumped into CC and she had a puzzled look on her face. “You ok?” I asked her. She stood there for a moment in self thought and said, “Yeah, yeah, I’m fine. Thank you though.” I gave her a smile and nodded my head and continued my way down the hall. I heard her shout from down the hall, “When you first came here, everything got better in time right? Everything got cool again?” I turned around and stared at her for a bit trying to figure out what she meant. “Yeah,” I said not really knowing what else to say. She looked down then back up at me. “You better keep an eye on your Major. She’s not doing too hot,” she said. Again, I looked at her trying to figure out what she was talking about. “What are you saying?” “I’m just saying. She needs you,” and she turned the other way and walked down the hall. Confused as anything I went back to direction I was walking. I went into the lounge to find Leeha by herself making a cup of coffee. “What is CC talking about?” I asked her. I figured maybe she knew, since she knew a lot of things first. “I think the question is, what are you talking about?” “Well, I was walking over here and I passed her in the hallway and then she asked me when I got here, if everything got better, and I didn’t know what to say. So I said yeah, and then she told me the Major isn’t doing too hot. What does that even mean?” She looked at me strangely; she looked down and turned her attention to her coffee. “Yeah, well Kay isn’t really doing too hot.” I looked at her and said, “Well is anybody going to explain to me why? Or what’s going on?” She turned back around and looked at me dead in the eye. “Well, in the past, Kay has had some- troubles, I guess you can say; with herself. She’s been through a lot and it takes a toll on you, even for an adult. And to go through those things that young, I can only imagine what it’s like inside of her head. And lately she’s been acting weird with Bentley and we’re not sure why, but we think we’re going to find out really soon. And Riggs isn’t helping either. So there are a lot of factors to what’s going on. But the last time something like this happened, it wasn’t good, and she left. We all guessed the stress was too much but we know there’s more to it. Then she came back-“ “You guys asked her to come back,” I interrupted. She shook her head and said, “No, we suggested it. It was the only safe place for her. We could watch her and make sure nobody gets to her. We could help her out, give her moral support, and maybe eventually figure out what’s wrong with her. She gets explosive Allison. It’s not safe for any of us, or her for that matter, and we need to figure it out fast before something goes horrifically wrong.” I knew it was serious because no one really calls me Allison unless it’s serious. I looked at her and she had a serious look in her eyes. “She could very well kill herself if we don’t find out what’s going on.” I didn’t want to believe what she just told me, but I knew it was very possible. Looking back in my records I had of her, I knew what she’s done, I knew what she was capable of, and I knew the longer she lived and the more she grew, the greater danger she became to herself. But I didn’t know how real that was until know. “We don’t know how, or why she came through to you, but right now you seem to be her only post. Hold her up for us until we figure this out,” Leeha told me. “So what your telling me is she’s mentally unstable?” She nodded her head and said, “Exactly.” I looked at her then stormed out of the room.

     Sitting at the computer, I looked up every possible piece of information I could get on Kay. I wanted to know everything possible about her, everything she’s been through, all the missions, all her health records, everything. And the only way to do that was to go through her file, which was highly illegal unless granted access. I sat staring at the large screen trying to figure out what to do. I knew I couldn’t hack into anything; that would just be wrong. I would do it in my old days, but not now, I was a changed person. So I sat there and came to the conclusion that I would just have to ride it out and see what happens. “Gay…” I muttered to myself. “I know I’m not, but what are you?” I heard a voice behind me and turned around to see it was Takashi. “Can’t bring yourself to hack into it, can you?” I don’t know how he knew what I was trying to do but he was right. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said. “Don’t play dumb. I know you’re worried, but there’s not much we can do. We just have to wait and be prepared. Leeha told me the conversation you had. I came in right after you left and she told me to go check on you and see if you were okay.” “You guys do know that half of her problems are here right? Half of how she is, is because she’s back here right? You do know that? So why would you suggest she comes back? Why would you-“ “WE, didn’t do anything. We suggested it. She took it upon herself to come back. She wasn’t happy about it, but she did it. She knows better. In the amount of sanity she still has left, she knows better,” he interrupted me this time. “Don’t play that game with us. Don’t play the blame game. Because I guarantee you, everybody here has something to blame on everybody for the way they are. But in the end of the day, if it wasn’t for each other, we wouldn’t be here now, and we wouldn’t be who we are. We help each other. We’re humans, we make mistakes but we fix them. Together. We are a team; we act like a team. And you are a part of it now,” he said. I was almost close to tears, which I haven’t cried in so long I forgot how it feels. I took a breath and said, “I know. I know, I’m just worried, that’s all.” “You, me, and the rest of the team kid. Welcome to our lives,” and he patted my head and left.